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Created on: 01/12/13 04:17 AM

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Grn14


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Staying
01/12/13 4:17 AM

Dear Bean...I'm going to look into moving,...Right now I am.You tell me...straight out now...can I do this without worrying about having a place to stay until I get my own?I do not intend to create a burden on you...but what's the reality?If I had to stay 'outside' in the open...would I be okay?

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RE: Staying
01/12/13 8:27 AM

Grn, whoa....slow down a tad. You're not thinking clearly right now, very normal in a circumstance such as this.

You have to go through the grieving process, there is no other way to get to the otherside.

I just went through this with my father last April. All kinds of thoughts and emotions go through your mind. You will feel guilt that maybe you weren't there for them enough or you could have treated them better when they were still in this world.

Over time you will heal....but you'll never be the same person, the loss of a loved one always changes us. Eventually a new "normal" will emerge and you'll get on with life as your mom would have wanted.

At first I thought about my pop constantly but overtime you begin to heal and accept what has happened. Until that time, go through the pain, you cannot heal without it.



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RE: Staying
01/12/13 10:04 AM

Grn, living off the land in Oz, are you thinking of becoming an Aborigine? You don't want to become a homeless Aussie...they'd ship your Yankee ass out quicker than a greased weasel.

You have stuff to take care of here. Move to Oz some day soon but make sure it is a well planned moved.



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RE: Staying
01/12/13 11:18 AM

You know...you guys are right.I feel bad...thinking I could have done more....I know...everyone says it's normal...I feel here on the forum I'm making too much out of this...I don't want to have others hurting because I 'can't get on with it'...I never thought I would feel as I do....you know...trusting God and all...I want to be an active helpful guy here...right now...I'm failing...I feel like it anyway.This isn't a forum for 'feelings'...it's about the Ninja....God I wish my bike were here...just so I could wax and polish her up....and that seems so selfish...I can't bring moma back....I know that."she's in a better place"...I know that also...but I'm still here...wishing I could have understood more about what was happening with her.I pray you all are not thinking I need to be fixed.Please don't think that...I have to do what is right here....and all your words of support...It means millions to me ....I know I've been a prick at times....I forgot...we're all important...our lives....our hurts,our things.All important.

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RE: Staying
01/12/13 12:06 PM

God I wish my bike were here...just so I could wax and polish her up....and that seems so selfish..

That's exactly what you need, Grn. Why don't you go down to the stealer and pick one out? Or better, see what kind of deal you can start hammering out. If he won't meet your pocketbook, you have time to wait.

Don't worry that you didn't do enough for Mom, for crying out loud. I'm a nurse aide caring for elderly peeps every day. I work in their homes and I've been in nursing homes. I can tell you, you have done much more than most parents ever expect. You shared your life with your mother right up to the last. Any mom would be glad to have that comfort. Now start taking care of old Greenster.



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RE: Staying
01/12/13 12:55 PM

Thank you Rookman...I am listening...hard to do without speaking...I trust you....I do.Going most likely today to just sit in the store...and be free of hassles.I called my boss just a bit ago...he said...it would be okay if I just showed up....so many miss me there...it's hard to imagine....I've got to accept....things will not be as they were.This taking care of mom...it's now done.I'm tired...very.And I miss her terribly...even though things were not 'normal'.It's really just me now..and at some level....I don't like me.I 've got to realize...somewhere along the line of this...to grow up.I'm trying...it was all a fantasy before...having mom here...me being here.Now....it's me.And I don't like it.

Everyone says..."you've been an awesome son"....no...I haven't.I failed mom and dad in lots of ways...doing my "own" thing.And for what?To feel 'okay'...and I still want to 'feel okay'...and I feel guilty from that...you know...dealing with the loss and all...your 'charges'....please be always true with me...tell me when to let go...and be a man.....I honor your opinions always...there is no blame...ever...towards your opinions...You've been good to me...I know you speak truth...always.


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RE: Staying
01/12/13 1:56 PM

Emotions are full of energy: your first order of business is to find an outlet.

Perform a task that has long term positive benefits for you.



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RE: Staying
01/12/13 2:22 PM

.tell me when to let go...and be a man..

I am sure no expert. I'm fortunate to have both of my parents alive still (although I think my father prolly drove me nuts by the time I was in middle school and it has taken the last 30 years to half recover and not relapse every time I visit him). I don't think you need to be concerned if you are preocupoied with your mom's no longer being with you. That seems very normal, wouldn't you say? Just keep doing what your doing and if you can find something positive and exciting to help you along the way grab it. The new BIKE!! Did you ever think that maybe this is the reason for the crash??? Look what has happened. You've spent all your time near your mom in her last months and now you have every reason to own the new bike.

Perform a task that has long term positive benefits for you.

...new bike or else I want to see a videostream of Grn doing calisthenics until he drops! We will give you your own section. The Grn14 Show



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RE: Staying
01/12/13 2:36 PM

I was kinda leaning towards a new Ninjee but its Montana's call.



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RE: Staying
01/12/13 3:40 PM

You know what I'm doing right now Montana?

Educating.

Its 64F right now in the armpit AKA Pittsburgh and I just finished administering instruction.

To whom, you ask? Allow me to edify.
This area is infested with dodge (intentionally lowercase) trucks featuring diesel engines replete with smoke stacks. That, in and of itself, doesn't roust my ire. What does is when they camp out in the hammer lane thinking "they be all DAT".

Hence, the instruction.

The curriculum was as follows: the Ninjee pulls along side in the slow lane and barks via her R77s. The dodge responds with full throttle and black smoke. Ninjee answers with a half-throttle climb through the gearbox. After one mile the Ninjee slows down and asks for confirmation of "lesson learned". Ninjee receives a sour-puss from the dodge pilot.

The moral: a scant number of the population has been chosen to administer these lessons. The curriculum MUST continue to be disseminated amongst the lesser beings. The Ninjee has chosen you as its instrument.

Make ready your corporeal being to answer.

As James Earl Jones said, portraying the character Thulsa Doom, "And THAT is strength, boy! THAT is power! The strength and power of Ninjee!"


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RE: Staying
01/12/13 4:53 PM

Fuckin Hagrid...geez...how cool.I knew you'd come up with sumthin to bust shit up....and you have...diesels....fUC#...I dislike them SOBs way big time...ugly on the environment.Yeah...but it hits the ground,right?You're too cool.I luv ya bro...right here,right now.Someone I ask...PLEASE talk shit to me...I need it about now...(just don't go too farLOL).


Aw...fuck that...go as far as ya want....I want to get back in 'the mode'...so fuck you mamby pamby "be nice to Grn:... guys...no honestly...your care has been awesome...I'm only kidding about the other bullshit part.Nice is good.Just not TOO nice.Tell me what ya REALLY think(Hag..you should get this part..as in....Star Trek?Dr Mcoy)?


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RE: Staying
01/12/13 5:45 PM

Dammit Montana, I'm a Ninjee pilot, not a doctor. Your first, best destiny is the selection of a new Ninjee. This will be the new outlet of all your energy.

I want you to do it, the universe wants you to do it. DO IT NOW!

You really don't need me to tell you this... you already know. For whatever reason, you want me (us) to bring you there. And that's fine. Your Mom, whether you realize or not, understood you all to well.

Get... the... Ninjee.


The rolling hard in the turns, the time-warping launches, all this is part of you.



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RE: Staying
01/12/13 8:50 PM

hagrid you are cool, dude...Those are great words.

hahahah I love the way you write, hagrid.

So how ya doin, Grn. Dreaming about yer new Ninjee??

Grn has a new Ninjee out there, it just has not arrived yet. A while longer and and a brand new baby Ninjee will be born. GO NINJEE!!



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RE: Staying
01/12/13 8:58 PM

"Dammit Montana, I'm a Ninjee pilot, not a doctor. Your first, best destiny is the selection of a new Ninjee". ...Hags...you're just too awesome....Spock..yes..I just watched that flik last night.Always cool...always 'yes'...so I'll pull it up again...if not JUST for that part...it is WAY COOL...thank you man...you get it...I know you do....Luv ya bro.Watching....now(after entering the code ya know;)


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